Is this normal?!?!

I am SOOOO excited to have Joey home but I cant let myself think about it too much. I am in shock that it is actually happening. I feel like I have pushed all my emotions aside while he has been gone and now that its so close I am EXTREMELY emotional!! I have been crying over everything I am so anxious for him to come home but feel like after all this time its all catching up to me and im just emotionally exhausted! This last little bit is hard but we dont have much longer and if it takes me crying over everything then so be it I guess....

This may have something to do with the time going by fast!!!

Check out my wedding progress

Well my countdown is officially on! I am down to days, really?! This has been so fast yet so very slow. I feel like I dont even remember what it is like to be with him home.. I honestly cant wait :D

I have been working on losing weight and have made some progress but I have come to the conclusion I have a problem. I know I can lose weight but I have no self control. I do so well and then blow it?! WHY!! Then my self hate comes into play and I get down on myself. Even though I have come so far I still think I am so gross. I wish I could just think good things about myself its something I really need to work on, Joey is so supportive and encourages me and always tells me how great I look I just wish I could believe him,

I just got traveling for the last time till he is home so now its a scramble to get everything done! I am redoing my dressers and would like to have them done before he gets home but trying to do them in an apartment upstairs with a baby is a lot harder than I thought! I am going to be spring cleaning this week and I'm not going to lie i'm excited ( how weird am I right)

Now off to bed i'm delirious from a week and a half of no sleep but it was well worth being with my family!!

Is it May yet????

Well it is now April and I cant really explain how excited I am to be able to say I will be in Joeys arms next month.

I shouldn't be down or sad but I cant shake the lonely feeling. I have no one here and it just gets hard being alone all the time. I miss him so much. I am starting to get anxious and realized I have SOOO much to do before he is home! Hopefully it will all keep be super busy so the time will fly!!

Going Ons....

Well we have about two months left! Time is flying...

I have been dieting trying to lose the baby weight. So far I have lost 20lbs I have a ways to go  gained so much! Today I am starting the 30 day shred so hopefully we will see some results!!!

Joey is staying busy and has been moved to days so we dont get to talk much anymore. Khloe and I are staying busy with the wedding stuff and just everyday life! I thought I would update this weekly but I just cant seem to get myself to do it. Rather than wishing my days away I am trying to make the most of them and it going pretty well! We cant wait till Joey is home so hopefully my next post I will have made some progress on my weight loss and I can post some pictures:)

WE ARE OVER THE HUMP!!!

We are now on the downhill side of this deployment!!!!

I have been so busy planning our wedding and dieting and being a mommy!!

So far I have lost 20 lbs!!!!

I have sent save the dates out, and now im starting on the details.

I am making our backdrops and platters. I have SOOO much to do so I know these next few months are going to fly by! I will be hoping to lose some more weight and stay busy with the wedding!!!

Wow is time flying!

I feel like I just did my post that 2 months were down and now we are a few days short of 3 months down!! I have been busy! Taking care of baby, doing wedding stuff ( mostly SAVE THE DATES) and traveling. We just got back from Pittsburgh! we might be taking a little break from traveling and try to get some wedding stuff done. I also started my diet woot woot!! And we got great news

JOEY GOT CAPPED!!!!!!

He is now E-5 Am2 !!

 I am so proud of him he deserves this! 

This also brings up weird feelings, this means Joey is in for the long hall! which in turn means he will be deployed once again! We are a strong couple and a strong family so I know we are able to get through another one or another 50 ( who knows with the military) Joey is amazing at what he does and If he is happy then we are happy!!! It is also a great career, so we will make whatever life brings us work!!!!

At this moment I am dealing ok with everything, we will see what tomorrow brings!!! 

I am at a point where I have been wishing the time to go fast and of course I do but I look at my daughter and she is already 5 months old and I feel like I am missing things with her because I want time to go by. At this point  I am going to try and be more present for the sake of my baby girl! I dont want to miss a thing!! February is a short month and im hoping a busy one!